Tuesday, November 29

The Killers - Romeo And Juliet

A lovestruck Romeo, sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Find a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack"
He's underneath the window, she's singing
Hey, la, my boyfriend's back"
You shouldn't come around here, singing up at people like that
Anyway what you gonna do about it?

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet and you exploded in my heart
And I forget, I forget the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?

Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin
Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him"

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, "I love you till I die"
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk like the talk on the tv
And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you
Can't do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, the bad company
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die"
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Find a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Monday, November 28

My 20's by A5P

I always read that the 20s are your best consistent decade of life. And it, maybe true.  have already spent sometime reflecting on what this symbolic change over in date may mean, I figured a little but of the A5P (Avery 5 Pillars) was in order. So, since I started keeping (nerd like) stats of my life, here are my 20s.

For more information about the Avery 5 Pillars, check this out.

Top 10 Greatest Moments of my 20s
1. Graduating from SUNY Plattsburgh
2. moving back to Plattsburgh
3. !!!
4. The New Hampshire Republican State Committee
5. the 2010 Mid-term Elections
6. Graduating from Marist College
7. the 2012 Presidential Elections
8. Find a self and potential roots
9. !!
10. To retire from politics.

22 774
23 658
24 432
25 890
26 257
27 665
28 1179
29 1410

ever upward

Pretty interesting stuff.
Just another way to look at the world.

But you know what...here is holding out for my 30s. They are going to be incredible. They have to be. I have learned a lot. Experienced a lot. And I am truly on track to be the person I want to be. My foundation is strong, and the spring board is pointing ever upward.

Saturday, November 26

To be Thankful

I told myself I should write my next post on the state of the current world, my reflections on the last three weeks. And that still may come, as I have several drafts now.

However, something much more important has superseded this desire - a post on just how thankful I am for all I have.

A snapshot of where I am at, can only say I really am the luckiest. I have an amazing family, which I was just reminded of the last 72 hours. Incredible friends, who I just do not see nearly enough, and I am contently reminded of just how much I need them. Awesome colleagues who challenge me every single day. And I am with someone so important, so special, that there are just not enough words.

I have a good job. A job I, in fact, love (even if I tell you different).

I have food in my belly and a solid living.

I am blessed. This is my way to just say thank you to those around me. I am so thankful for everyone. I do not say that enough. I am so lucky to have these incredible people in my life.

I do not know what tomorrow may bring, and yes that bothers me to no end, but at the moment I am the happiest. I wish to spend more time in the present, so I am here for (hopefully) some time, to be thankful for all I have. Thank you for all who have made me who I am.

Sunday, November 6

Life and Statistics part 2

A follow up from a past post, which I find fascinating. 

I attempting to learn and being a major geek at the same time.

The Baseline

I am 30 in a few days, and I like the idea of updating this for my 30th Birthday. I am using the baseline that I have lived for 1,560 weeks to date (30 years * 52 weeks since my birth).

A Point on Geography

Vernon, New York : 1,014 weeks, 65.0% of my life
Plattsburgh, New York : 282 weeks, 18.1% of my life
Concord, New Hampshire : 221 weeks, 14.2% of my life
Other locations (for a few weeks) : 24 weeks, 1.5% of my life

Time as an Adulthood

Adolescence (pre-18 year old) : 936 weeks, 60.0% of my life
Adult-ness : 624 weeks, 40.0% of my life

An Education

Vernon-Verona-Sherrill High School : 676 weeks, 43.3% of my life
SUNY Plattsburgh : 234 weeks, 15.0% of my life
Marist College : 104 weeks, 6.7% of my life
Total - 1,014 weeks, 65.0% of my life

My Work

Silver City Cafe : 312 weeks, 20.0% of my life
Plattsburgh : 286 weeks, 18.3% of my life

New Hampshire Republican State Committee : 104 weeks, 6.7% of my life
AmeriCorps : 52 weeks, 3.4% of my life
Representative Richard Hanna : 52 weeks, 3.3% of my life
Sanborn : 48 weeks, 3.1% of my life
Total - 854 weeks, 54.6% of my life

My Relationships

I have been in 4 serious relationships.
Total - 423 weeks, 27.1% of my life

Saturday, November 5

Paint and Sip

Clear your Friday night schedule. Bring your helmet. Bring knee pads. Oh ya, bring a water bottle.

With only that bit of information I set out on a surprised journey. And, boy was it a surprise. Ending up in one of my favorite cities, had a blast doing a Paint and Sip :)

This was an incredible time, doing incredible things, with an incredible person.
I was simply grinning ear to ear the entire time.

A very happy birthday boy

Thursday, November 3

To turn 30

30 years happened to me today. Actually at 7:10p today. Just over 12 hours from now.

I found a fantastic post last night outlining some thoughts; after, of course writing my own (below). However, I decided to still post. Because milestones are meant to be shared.

Our milestones are beautifully different, but hauntingly the same.

I don't typically celebrate my birthday, in fact praying it just silently sails by into the night. I am no more special than the incredible people around me. I do not want the attention.

However, 30 has been different. Last year an amazingly beautiful soul made me an incredible birthday cake. They didn't have to, but, on a whim, told that everyone deserves a cake. That person, that moment, changed me - moved me almost to tears.

Now, as I come to my 30th birthday I find myself excited. The last week I have felt a glow that I haven't felt since my early teens. Tonight I will spend it celebrating with some of my best friends. Accepting not all of my friends and loved ones can join me, and I would never be in a room with all of them - but understanding fully that we would all be together if the world worked like that.

I have learned how to be a better person, but I have far from mastered it.
It took almost 29 years, but I finally learned what love is.
I truly learned about the pain of heart ache and loosing love.
I have found what true happiness is.
I have struggled. I have fought daemons. I have found poison. I have ridden poison.
I have made incredible friends. I have lost incredible friends.
I have found a career. And with that success. And failure.
I have changed that career, and found a more rewarding one.
I have found so many ups, and just as many downs.
I have learned. I have learned every single day, every single second.
I have seen the world change so much.
I have seen the world stay the same.
I have no wisdom, but I am so much wiser than yesterday.
I have so many vices, but I am working on them every day.

I have found myself.
And that, my friends has truly made all the difference.

I am Jake, and I am alive.
I found myself whispering the lyrics "and we build our house of cards and then we wait for it to fall, always forget how strange it is just to be alive at all." With a bit more understanding.

After all of this, I find I know nothing at all. And there is so much comfort in that.

Today, I turn 30's - and I cannot wait to see what is next on this crazy journey.

Tuesday, November 1

Chapters in Life pt. II (the first update)

An Intro
Our life has key moments; there are few who would disagree with that statement. These key moments are in our subconscious and mark pivotal times in our lives. With that premise I have created a quick, down and dirty way of seeing where I have been - maybe where I am going. A continuation of the first part of this idea of chapter in life....to move on.

Chapter I. VVS (pre - 2005)
Brief: The beginning of it all. Everything up until graduation in 2005, 18 years old, and just before leaving for the first time. The best subtitle would be "The Foundation", where I gained a 'little' knowledge of who I was and who I wanted to be. I say a 'little' because looking back I had no clue, even though I thought I did.
SongsPiano Man - Billy Joel; Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton; Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen; Old Friends/Bookends - Simon & Garfunkel; There Goes my Life - Kenny Chesney
Key Moments: Yearbook, the Boilermaker, PM, KD, BM, AI, JU, JL, Riz, MF, KR, CT, RT, Majka, JM, AK, SB. DA Prom, Class Office, Talent Show, ONE, Track, Soccer, Baseball, Cross Country, Basketball, Running, Silver City Cafe, Quantum Leap, Boy Meets World, Saved By the Bell, Field of Dreams, Terminator 2

Chapter II. SUNY Plattsburgh (2005-2008)
Brief: On to the next chapter, the "me years", where I really found out who I was (than again, I've said that before). More importantly, I realized who I wanted to be and what I wanted to do (in a broad sense) with life. There is so much more to say, but I try to sum that up in key moments.
SongsFix You - Coldplay; Read My Mind - The Killers; A Love Supreme - John Coltrane; I feel Home - OAR; Grey Street - DMB; Breathe Me - Sia
Key Moments: Washington, Orientation, Res-Life, the Student Association, ONE, Alternative Break, Montreal, CSI, CDPI, Macdonough, Banks, Defredenburgh, Wilson, Harrington, Whiteface, PBJ sandwhiches, Summer Baseball, AI, Krug, JF, CB, JS, LT, LP, JN, RM, BD, SW, BE, BH, MB, CM, BGx 3, LA, SM, CJ, DD, MC x2, MB + NO, SSM, JW, BE, BL, with a hint of ER and the West Wing.

Chapter III. AmeriCorps (2009)
Brief: The shortest chapter that leads to the fourth chapter. My first stint in the "real world". At the end a lot of my assumption, well, really everything I thought I learned in Plattsburgh were thrown out the window. Talk about a reality check
Songs: No specific songs, rather acoustic music.
Key Moments: Marist College, AI, EP, ME, RM, Campus Compact, DF, SI, KM, Langdon Mills, the West Wing, ER, The Draft

Chapter IV. New Hampshire part II (2010)
Brief: The Campaign. Moved back to New Hampshire and leaving a lot behind. And gosh darn it we won. Learned a lot about life, learned a lot about who I was. When it comes down to it I healed a lot of wounds that were left with chapter 3. The year didn't end the best, but looking as a whole a lot happened.
SongsHallelujah - Jeff Buckley, I Want to Break Free - Queen, Eva Cassidy
Key Moments: The Draft, Victory, GOP Landslide, Signs, Press Releases, LttE, Blackberry, Hillsborough, Henniker, Loudon, Concord, State House, Subway, Constantly Pizza's Cookies, AS, LS, AU, FM, TG, TQ, MM, BT, WN, DT, JPM, DM

Chapter V. New Hampshire part III (2011-2013)
Brief: Moved back, again to New Hampshire to "start my career". The only summary I have is that I lost myself during this time, or my sense of self. I concluded this chapter by moving back home and spending a year finding myself, working for a person I loved. 
Songs: Stubborn Love - Lumineers, Man on Fire - Edward Sharp and the Manetic Zero's
Key MomentsThe New Hampshire Republican Committee, GEO Connect, Annual Meeting, Victory Campaign, Mitt Romney, The Dark Knight Rises, Obama Wins, IRA, Masters in Public Administration, Stupidity, Lincoln, MS, KB, SD, TM, WM, JH, CH, CW, HP, AK, PV, BW, JS. Richard Hanna. 

Chapter VI. Home, again (2013-2014)
Brief: Moved home, 1 year goal, Richard Hanna, Broome County, Oneida County, All the Counties. Struggled every day to find a meaning - never found it.
Stubborn Love - Lumineers, Taxi and Sequel - Harry Chapin
Key Moments: The Drive, Cortland County, Finishing NH, J, Winning the Election, A Retirement.

Chapter VII. 
SUNY Plattsburgh part II (2014- )
Brief: Choosing to move past politics, maybe into higher education? Learning from mistakes, by far the most reflective time of my life. Question everything with limited answers. Not sure of the next steps. A second masters. Turing my one position into multiple positions. Finding a career...finding a calling?
SongsLover of the Light ~ Mumford and Sons, The Lumineers - Ophelia, Thomas Rhett - Die A Happy Man
Key Moments:  ,   , Masters in Higher Education and Student Affairs,  , Center for Student Involvement, CDPI, Eric Church, Desk, How I Met Your Mother, Parenthood, Gothics/Armstrong, Marcy/Skylight/Gray...

Friday, October 28

I wish I could explain your eyes,
and how the sound of your voice gives me butterflies.
How your smile makes my heart skip a beat
and how every time I'm with you,
I feel so complete.